Tomorrow is a blank page...

Yes, tomorrow is a blank page... just waiting to be filled with my dreams.

All I have to do is be myself and live the story of my own unique life.
Be proud, be confident, and most of all try to be happy...

Heart broken...

People may say no one ever died of a broken heart, but when you're suffering from one, it sure doesn't feel that way...at least initially.

What you don't see...

You see me with a smile on my face
You see me walk with an up-beat pace
You see me laugh in a mellow way
You see me speak of a joyful day...

But... what you do not see is the truth hidden inside me..

Don't be a fool...

I never thought you would let me down. Turns out I was wrong, and you were just one of those men to take advantage of my happiness and throw it away like a piece of garbage..

I

Someday....

Someday, you will love me like I loved you
Someday, you will cry over me like how I cried over you
Someday, you will want me...because when the day comes..I won't want you

I am done with it.

I just don't...

I don't try to be different because I am
I don't try to fit in because I won't
I don't try to lie to me because I'll hurt myself
I don't try to lie to you because that would hurt worse
I don't try to pay you attention because I do
I don't try to ignore you because I could not
I don't try to talk to yuo because you won't talk back
I don't try to try to smile at your because you turn the other way
I don't try to hug you, so I'll hug myself
I don't try to hit you, I 'll hit my pillow instead
I don't try to hate you, that would be impossible
I don't try to care for you but I do anyway (you just don't realise it)
I don't try to prove myself because I'll prove myself wrong

I don't try to say "I Love You".... because...
...its just not worth it...

Empty feelings....

GOD has a better plan... it wont be like this forever...

Go on.. Judge me..!

I'm too strong because I don't cry (not anymore..), too weak because I fall for people I shouldn't, I'm too selfish because sometimes I put myself first. I lie because don't always tell how truly I feel. I am quite because I don't always understand. I'm loud because I'm confused and don't know what to do. I'm kind because I'll listen and try to understand.

Yes, I'm a B**ch, I'm a B**ch because I say what I think...!

So, go on... JUDGE ME..!

The day you broke my heart...

One day you'll look back and think...."Damn! that woman really did love me.."

In pieces....

My heart was taken by you... broken by you... and now it is in pieces because of you...

Things that I dont have...

Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I dont have from you... LOVE...

Your clock is ticking...

Just let me ask you something... if I happen to walk out of this house right now and never come back, and just forget everything and leave it all behind, would you be OK with that?

Because I have 5 steps till I close that front door and you have 5 seconds to make up your mind... starting now...!

I am not that strong...

I know it seems like I am the strongest person who can get through with anything, but in reality inside I am fragile. I've had so many things 'thrown' at me, and each one has only made me 'crack'.

What I am afraid of is shattering...