Why I change...

There are only 2 reasons why I change...

1) I have learned for myself so many things
2) I have been hurt too many times

Everyone asks me, don't you wish? don't you hope? don't you dream?
...and my reply..."Yeah... I used to..."

Sadness in smiles...

People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain. Well, I have tried that...

I've tried hiding my sorrow and covering the sadness in smiles... and what I've learned is that when it hurts this much inside, my heart always has a way of showing it no matter how many masks I wear...

Where do I go from here...

I’m ready to move on.
Travel and go someplace new.
Someplace different.
Doesn’t have to be far away.
It doesn’t have to be some extravagant place…
I just want to go someplace where the people are new ...
A place where love and sacrifices are appreciated...

Hurt again...

The stupidest mistake in my life is thinking that the one hurt me the most, won't hurt me again.. (..sigh..)

Fear of reality...

If I can't solve it, it isn't a problem - its a reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits me in the face I'll never forget it. It will always be there in my memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.

Maybe...

Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head...Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone....

Footprints in my heart...

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon... They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints in our hearts, and we are never, ever the same again.....