When you had enough...!

There comes a certain point when you just know you’ve had enough...

You just fucking want to quit getting up in the morning because every day it's the same thing and it doesn't get better, only worse.

Mummy's Love...

When I think of a family,I can't help but think of my precious daughter.

She's growing up into a beautiful young lady, and I'm faced with the fact that soon it's time for me to start letting her go. There's nothing harder, yet more rewarding than letting go and watching your child 'fly'. Even when you want to be there to catch them when they fall...

...This kind of 'heart-broken', I can handle....

Sunday scribblings...

I have no trouble expressing my joys...they come out effortlessly, bobbing on the surface for everyone to see. But my hurts are a different matter...they lurk, they hide, they cling, they skulk. The bruises on my heart will fade away but the words you said hit so hard their impact will always remain...I must lure them out like fish in deep water; I must reel them out of the depths.

Baking helps me do this, and for that I'm grateful...

Hanya pada Mu...

Sesungguhnya, hanya Allah ku mengadukan rasa sedih dan susah ku.

Surah Yusuf, Ayat 86

Take my broken heart...

Lately, I've been lookin' through the windows of my heart and soul, and I can see there's not much left to hold; just an empty space surrounded by the pieces of badly broken heart that's forgotten how to love.

If I had the power to take my heart right out of my chest and show you how many pieces you broke it into, would that at least ruin your day?  I don't think so..

I'm prepared...

I'm prepared...

No matter how much I tried, I can't change someone that can't be changed.
Sometimes being single is the remedy for the drama and stress caused by your significant other.

Why I change...

There are only 2 reasons why I change...

1) I have learned for myself so many things
2) I have been hurt too many times

Everyone asks me, don't you wish? don't you hope? don't you dream?
...and my reply..."Yeah... I used to..."

Sadness in smiles...

People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain. Well, I have tried that...

I've tried hiding my sorrow and covering the sadness in smiles... and what I've learned is that when it hurts this much inside, my heart always has a way of showing it no matter how many masks I wear...

Where do I go from here...

I’m ready to move on.
Travel and go someplace new.
Someplace different.
Doesn’t have to be far away.
It doesn’t have to be some extravagant place…
I just want to go someplace where the people are new ...
A place where love and sacrifices are appreciated...

Hurt again...

The stupidest mistake in my life is thinking that the one hurt me the most, won't hurt me again.. (..sigh..)

Fear of reality...

If I can't solve it, it isn't a problem - its a reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits me in the face I'll never forget it. It will always be there in my memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.

Maybe...

Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head...Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone....

Footprints in my heart...

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon... They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints in our hearts, and we are never, ever the same again.....